Holidays are comin’

Now I can certainly say writing a blog post this evening hadn’t even crossed my mind, in fact it hasn’t for the last few months. Not until my friend Char, a fellow ‘blogger’, sent me a little reminder that she’s going to be writing every day in November which of course got me excited and made me wonder, can I do it this year? Writing for me lately has consisted of copious amounts of shopping and to-do lists and a scramble of French passages trying to pass as assignments, I feel I haven’t had the time for any personal writing.

The other problem is that the last couple of months have been a very big mental struggle for me. Positive thinking and myself were no longer pals and I had Dominos on my speed dial; the manager has even started to recognise me there, awks! I’ve had no real want to share with the internet as my mental health hasn’t been at all great, I’ve lost motivation for everything in life and my physical health has been a bit of a sham too. These stages come and go in life frequently, I can vouch for that, but this one has been pretty difficult for me. I’ve gained so much weight, lost some special friends and opened a few too many wounds from the past just to top it off.

I guess this is me trying to push through it, share with my internet chums the struggles I mentally go through in life, when I eventually want to open up about them. Christmas (for me this is the whole of November and December) is a time where everything should sparkle, you make more memories with your family and there seems to be a spark in the air. I cannot carry on feeling so sorry for myself in this period or the months will fly by, February will be here and I’d have wasted Winter.

So, will I be blogging for the entire month of November? Maybe not, I don’t take to pressure very well. But I feel this could be one of the many ways to help me. I feel the need to get back on track, so yesterday I took a trip into my local town of Woodbridge and instead of my normal route of shopping where I create a list of shops I want to go in, speedily carry out my shopping duties and hurry home in the fear of getting a parking ticket, I took the time to really browse the shops in my town. It was beautiful, look at the Christmas decoration I stumbled upon – how very Tay and Ben!

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I was really dreading yesterday, my mum was coming up to visit for the day and evening – now I don’t think I’ve ever touched on my relationship with her, but it has been very, let’s say, volatile ever since I can remember. I can’t fault her in many ways of how she raised four children, bloody hell I couldn’t manage four brats, three of which were active little boys followed by a Tom Boy, but her parenting in many aspects was very questionable. Granted it’s nowhere near as hideous as some very unfortunate children in this world, but certain events, words and actions leave scars and unfortunately I don’t think I can ever forgive some things. When I moved out, she tried to make a real effort to repair our relationship, it’s taken time and we do get along so much better now but there is some bitterness always lingering, she can’t notice it because she’s often so wrapped up in her own life to take notice, but I feel it all the time.

So I caved when she kept asking for a date to come and visit which was booked for a while for this weekend; we had a glass of Prosecco, a quick lunch and browsed the shops. To be honest it was actually a great day, it took my mind off of many things, I got to really see what Woodbridge has to offer and more importantly it got me in the Christmas mood. After her leaving this morning, a yoga/stretching/meditation session, I’ve realised if I don’t try and think positively, nothing is going to change. I’m going to keep putting on some timber, feeling miserable and pushing my husband further away.

So here goes, dare I say it, roll on Christmas and bring old Tay back!

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My January Favourites – 2015

I know it’s a little late, but personally I don’t know how you can create a favourites until the month is up! Especially as I discovered one of my favourites right toward the end of this month. So without any babel, here are the things I’ve been loving during the first month of 2015. DSC01594DSC01591 Excuse the grumpy face and zebra crossing on my head – I wasn’t too impressed with the state of our room and also the shocking light I’m subject to! My first favourite is this Karrimor running top. At only £4.99, this was a bargain. This is everything I want and love in a running top, a long body, tight but not enough to show rolls, breathable and bright. It ticks all of these boxes. Some tops I buy ride up when I run which is my biggest hate about fitness tops, but this one doesn’t! DSC01597 DSC01598 Keeping in the theme of fitness, I have loved these ear phones this month. I actually got them for my birthday last year but when I first tried to put them in my ears I didn’t like how massive they were so refused to wear them again. Big error. I watched a tutorial how to use them properly and they’ve been a dream since. I always have the problem with my earphones falling out of my ears, smacking my piercings and getting damaged by sweat but these are on another level. For any fitness fans – these are a must. DSC01590 DSC01589 A present from my Mumma and Pappa at Christmas, these hair curlers are unusual to say the least. I had seen hair tutorial from famous Youtuber’s testing these out and I’d always been cautious as a) my curls never stay in as I have fine thin hair, b) they look pretty lethal and c) they’re an expensive investment. So when I opened these at Christmas I was so excited to try them out! I can confirm they are incredible. My curls stayed in not only the whole date night, but after a run the following day too with minimal hair spray. My curls when I used to use my GHD’s would stay in for all of an hour and turn into scraggly waves but these are a god send. DSC01587 This book. I am loving. End of. DSC01601 I am addicted to these bars. They’re gluten, wheat and dairy free. I was sceptical at first as they look like dog treats to the eye, but they’re filling, tasty and good for you. I recommend these to anyone who wants to remove snacking from their diet as these are good snacks 🙂 They have a huge variety of flavours, however they are quite pricey! DSC01586 DSC01585 This head and shoulders shampoo I have been using for a few months now. I have really noticed to difference in the strength of my hair; it normally falls out at any given chance and is always in pretty bad condition but considering it’s winter, I’m outside a lot and I’ve not been taking care of my hair, this shampoo has saved my hair. It was actually my fiancé’s but I stole it when my usual shampoo run out. I really would recommend this when you want a quick hair salvage. The Dr. Organic Shampoo and Conditioner I only bought a week or so ago. My friend recommended them as they’re meant to be much better for the hair as they contain little chemicals and are a lot more natural than brands such as Herbal Essences. On my first use, I used the Shampoo twice as I didn’t feel my hair was clean enough and also the colour and smell put me off. However, after a few uses my hair looks more shiney and ‘salonesque’ – if that’s even a word? I probably should have kept this for a February favourite as these may not grow on me too much but at first use, they’re a good switch from my regular shampoo and conditioners. DSC01599 I’ve wanted this box set for ages as I don’t have Sky so I can never watch re-runs and when I was younger and at home I’d always feel super awkward watching it infront of my rents! I received this for Christmas and as I’ve now been ill twice since, this has been a life saver. I have also worked out I can watch this in German and many other languages, which basically counts as revision, right? I spent 12 hours watching back to back episodes in German and my mind felt fried but I couldn’t turn it off – problems! It doesn’t advertise that it has not only subtitles but audio options in different languages so if anyone wants some easy watching in different languages, please buy! So these have been a random collection of things I’ve been loving in January. There hasn’t been much else I’m afraid as most of my January has been filled with running, eating and being ill! Let me know if you guys have tried any of the items mentioned above or any favourites you had in January which you’ll think I’ll like. XX

January Haul – (mainly fitness)

I have been fortunate enough to have had a little bit of spare money throughout January, which is the exact opposite of how my January’s normally go – not getting paid for around 6 weeks and scrounging off of my other half in the remaining days before pay day and checking my account at midnight to make sure my company have actually paid me! January 2015 was actually a little kinder on me.

After my amazingly great start to 2015 (cough) I thought I deserved a few treats so splashed out on the following:

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These are my new babies! When I first competed for my club back in June last year, everyone had a pair of spikes so I was incredibly jealous, but being a novice you don’t know if a) you’re going to enjoy this whole speed milarky and b) whether they’d be a wasted investment as they’re quite pricey. So after a lot of uhming and ahhing I decided to treat myself to these beauts. I’m not normally a fan of girly colours but there’s not as much choice in this area of running shoes. I haven’t had a chance to test them out but I’m expecting to put them to the test on Thursday.

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Ah god. What can I say about these bad boys? I was in a phase in January where I needed to buy anything and everything running related to give me a boost to get back into and ‘own’ running again. I was sick of getting annoyed at my regular running shoes, which when I originally bought they made me buy a size larger than my normal shoe! After getting my gait checked (I’m now a neutral gait woohoo), I realised I had loads more shoes to choose from and come across these bad boys. The shop assistant said the size is always down to preference and whoever sold me my 6’s clearly had no 5’s left in their more expensive shoes – what a mug that made me feel. So I opted for these in a comfy 5.5’s and I can only describe them as a dream to wear.

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I also decided a Yoga mat would be a good investment for our home as stretching is super important with running and with my stress levels raging at the moment, I could probably do with the ‘chilling’ aspect that comes with Yoga.

 

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Soooo I may have gone a little crazy in Sports Direct. How can I not? The prices were an absolute steal in the January sales. I’ve tested out all of the clothing above, except for the 2nd top on the bottom row as it’s not been warm enough to wear alone yet. My favourite is definitely the Karrimor pink item on the right for the gym ( it has small holes in so I don’t get too hot) and also the bottom right long sleeved Nike top, it has the hand inserts which really help to warm my hands with long distance as taking gloves, even in the snowy weather we’ve been having, is a big no no!

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Onto something a little less running related and more interlinked with my Bucket List – I’m going to see DEATH CAB BABBBBBBY! Words cannot explain how excited I am for this! I have waited to see them live for years as most American artists shy away from touring the UK…and if they do, their shortage of gigs sell out fast! We bought these tickets, as you can see at 6 minutes past 9 and 8 minutes later they were all gone. Ahhh I am so happy I’m going. This year is officially going to be amazing 🙂

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I also purchased this hoodie…however it may look mint green to you but when it arrived, I realised it was actually more green than a light mint as I think the picture shows. I’m actually in the process of sending this back for the coral version – something a little more girly and not usually what I’d opt for!

The only other bits I really bought in January were race places, event sign-up’s and ….. the entry to the New York marathon ballot! I know my chances of a place are slim, but I secretly really really want it. I think mentally I am now ready for it.

To end this, I’ll also tell you I splashed out and got my hair highlighted, not something I often allow myself to spend money on in the fear of having my hair look like a zebra crossing…there’s a reason for that…because it’s happened again! With 20 weeks to go until the wedding, I’m lucky this didn’t happen later on, but I’m still pretty annoyed as I look like a toddler has put yellow strips of Play-Doh through my hair.

Much love, Tay XX

 

Black Friday

This blog is going to start with a rant. I am absolutely furious with boohoo.com, infact I don’t even think furious covers it. I ordered some clothing on Black Friday from them, you’ll what below, and I opted for the free delivery which they were advertising which normally to be fair to them, comes quicker than the 3-5 business day delivery slot.

So I waited and waited and in the mean time other Christmas presents I’d ordered had turned up and so I decided to track the order and it said it had been delivered. Weird. So I messaged boohoo and to be fair to them on this front, their turn around for complaints is 24 hours which they did actually keep to but they proceeded to say, it had been delivered, can you ask your neighbours, check your garden? What sort of a question is this!

Firstly I had it delivered to my work which is an industrial estate on which the majority of people who work their, I’d say 80%, are male so why would they even think to keep the delivery. Secondly, the first line of the delivery address was the name of my company…if you pull into said estate you are firstly directed in the direction of our office and you can’t miss the god damn thing! We have from about 4-10 vans with all the companies logos on sitting outside!

So yes, I checked with my ‘neighbours’ and funnily enough they hadn’t received size 6-8 women’s clothing! So I am proceeding with this claim when I get a Facebook message from a random guy asking if I’d ordered anything from boohoo recently. It turns out he lives at the same number as our Unit on a similar road nearby and they’d left it outside their flat in the middle of the day, thankfully no-one had stolen it, he’d taken it in and contacted me! Good karma that boy shall have! So I’m going to proceed to tell Boohoo that I haven’t received it because that is disgraceful considering I spent over £60 on clothes.

Anyyyyway…..

Here are my ‘Black Friday’ purchases – a relatively new concept in the UK which I find totally bizzare. There were mongrels on the t.v fighting each other for the last televisions in Tescos, having full on fights over microwaves….seriously? Shouldn’t you lot all be at work?

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Fat Friday’s

The concept which I invented for the office staff where I work, where we can eat whatever we want on a Friday, often going out for a naughty lunch,someone buying chocolate or cake making. This was all well and good for about 4 weeks while I was training for my half marathon…..then I got chunks.

It’s Friday today and my office are well and truly embracing the Fat Friday. Cooked breakfasts and croissants all round…I had porridge with a bit of golden syrup – wooooah.

Alas, it may be raining and I may feel starved of my Fat Friday’s but the weekend is in sight! I managed to get my bum to the gym last night and suddenly have my urge back to get out and run, which, since doing my half in March, has been a long time coming.

So, is anyone else out there having a ‘Fat Friday’ or a ‘Boxing Day’ (see my previous post)?

My first/last boxing day consisted a little of the following:
1) Had a small lie-in
2) Snuck to McDonalds for some breakfast (an absolute treat as I never allow myself this sort of food unless hungover)
3) A glorious hot bath
4) Got changed and went shopping!
5) Ended up buying 2 casual tops, 3 ‘date’ tops, a book and a new academic diary.
6) Debated getting my conch pierced (has anyone had this done? I still haven’t had the b*****ks to do it)
7) Went and saw my cutie niece
8) Ordered a dominos with the significant other
9) Cracked open a bottle of prosecco and chilled

And do you know what? It was absolute bliss. I think everyone needs a ‘me’ day every now and again. Book yours in now!