‘I can’t do it.’

These have been the words that have haunted me for 24 whole years. These four powerful, self-doubting words that I have muttered internally on countless occasions when trying to jump into a new project, new lifestyle, difficult exam or new start; I’m finally done with telling myself that I can’t do it. I’ve always been a negative person, I get plenty of ideas and plans that I’d love to do, I’m a Gemini after all, but I either tell myself I can’t do it or something along the lines of ,‘you’re always going to be a jack of all trades and a master of none, so why not just give up now?’

For someone who has been fortunate enough to be born into a good family, able to attend a great school and fortunately still has good health and youth on my side, there is no reason that if I put my all into something that I can’t do it.

This realisation happened a few days ago, when after speaking to my buddy Char about re-doing her 100 Happy Days along with her friend Maria, I thought perhaps if I were to be a little more positive I could slowly but surely change my life and my attitude towards the world, people and myself.

It’s no secret I have a few personal issues (later to be spoken about in either a longer blog or what I presume will be an emotional video) and I think a small step, like committing to taking 100 snaps over the next 100 days, could be the kick start I need to a positive mind.

So here it goes… here are four of my memories from the last four days.

(My Instagram: @taytay275)

Day 1 – Saturday 21st November 2015

  
A while back, a friend mentioned she was trying to get tickets to go and see Elf the musical, shocked that I hadn’t heard that it was even being made into a theatre production let alone coming to London, o jumped straight on the Internet the next morning and got Ben and I some of the last reasonably priced tickets. If I’m honest, I’m not the best person to ask how it went as I don’t really enjoy musicals in general, I fell asleep during Les Mis *don’t shoot me *! However, I did love the performance, how Christmasey I now feel and the excitement it bought me. But unfortunately it didn’t change my opinion on musicals. 

Day 2 – Sunday 22nd November 2015

  
After getting in at 1am, Ben and I were up again at 7 and on our way to Norwich where he was off to complete his first half marathon. What we weren’t aware of was the snow we were going to be greeted with on arrival! Perfect running conditions for me but poor Ben looked nervous! Nevertheless, I am a very proud wifey and he completed it in a time that smashed both of mine out of the park! 

Day 3 – Monday 23rd November 2015

  
After a beautiful lie-in in our hotel, we headed out into Norwich to do a bit of shopping. Other than a small meltdown on H and M it was actually very successful. We made our way back home and where we had to sort out our empty bookshelves, giving me great pleasure in doing so! We had a new carpet fitted on Friday so everything looked like a bomb site! And I got to make my new little corner where I can cosy up with a glass of wine and pick from my mini library while staring at our fire.. I think I’m a little bit in love! 

Day 4 – Tuesday 24th November 2015

  
Unfortunately this one is a little bit of a cop out, my first working day of the week got away with me and I forgot to take my phone in the gym with me to snap up my new 5km treadmill time! So after a vile 2 hour and 45 minute journey, coming home to a bath with these bad boys is what I needed!
So here goes, here’s to the first challenge I actually complete and to changing my life for the better.

Please check out these beautiful girls also joining me on the journey, Char and Maria !

 

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Woah, sorry readers – I realise I haven’t updated this in a while and the usual excuse of having too much going on is partially true but also because I’ve been deciding how to write this first post back.

I haven’t completely avoided WordPress, infact I’ve been doing a lot of browsing and reading, especially into fitness, goals and healthy eating. I’m not sure if I told you, but after my half marathon I decided to join an Athletics Club, originally to meet people with the same interests and share motivation but as it transpires, also to improve my fitness and times. I then got really ill, injured myself and then had my final German exams so I didn’t religiously start going until a few weeks ago.

At training last Tuesday I somehow got roped into one of their athletics (my first since secondary school) for Sunday just gone. It was amazingly good fun, such good atmosphere. Granted, I was absolutely shocking, but I’ve set some nice and low PB’s for me to smash 🙂

So back to the theme of my post. Goals.

I’ve been reading everywhere, ‘you don’t get anywhere in life without a goal’ and similar phrases along the same kind of lines. I’ve also got ‘fitness’ as one of my tags which, if you have never looked, is so inspirational.

So there are a couple of things floating around my mind at the moment:

1) Complete an Iron Man in a week
So I found The Will of Power online which was a fitness challenge for the month of me (which, shock, I missed the deadline for) whereby you have to complete the iron man distances of swimming, cycling and running but within a week. I know this sounds so poor for those of you who train for iron man competitions but from a girl who has run no further than 13.1 miles in a day, this seems pretty tough. So the distances are 26.2 miles for the running, 112 miles cycle and 2.4 miles swim. As I’m currently trying to get back into the swing of things with my running and I’ve got a 10k and two more athletics events in the near future, I’ve scheduled this in for the week commencing 14th July. Watch this space for updates 🙂

2) Schedule in some L.D races
I made a start on this on Saturday with my pre-running nerves for Sunday and I stupidly signed up for the Silverstone Half Marathon in March (the race I took part in this year) in an attempt to beat my time, and 3 weeks prior to that, the Brighton Half Marathon. I have a 10k in 4 weeks time and I’m looking to booking in 1 more big 10k around October time. I’ve come to the conclusion – I am not a summer long distance runner – I HATE running in the heat. Give me 5 degrees Celsius and no sun any day of the week and I am a happy happy girly!

3) Run at least 3 times a week
This should be easy, I have athletics training on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so as long as I get 1 longer run in at the weekend and potentially a 4th in somewhere else, this will so be achievable.

4) Give myself 1-2 rests days a week
This is purely for my muscle repair. I have read that you get stronger during your times of rest when your body repairs the damages you’ve done by pushing yourself! During my non-running, non-rest days I will go to the gym, do some stretching at home, work on my abs, go swimming or get out on my bike.

5) Use MyFitnessPal every day (with the exception of race days)
So I’ve been using this for the past week or so and I love it! The reviews which state that as you monitor what you are eating, and drinking in my case, you tend to make better choices and I believe this is true! I have noticed my bad eating habits and am making a conscious effort to change these. I’m looking to eat cleaner, up my protein and reduce my sugar. Bye bye chocolate 😦 I’m excusing race days as I don’t think these should be counted with nerves, physical activity and results mean I should’ve have to worry too much. I know what my body will want and need and I should be able to reward myself.

The one thing I am struggling with is going out for dinner. Why does everyone my age want to go for bloomin’ dinner!!! I used to avoid it like the plague when I didn’t really enjoy eating but now I am actually ‘watching what I eat’ NOT dieting, everyone gets on their high horse about how I am starving myself – erm what?!? NO

6) Limit my alcohol intake
I thought this would be the hardest out of them all but since my birthday I’ve managed to not have a drop! Originally I was going to do a whole year off, then after my realisation of how unrealistic this was I decided that I will have one every now and again but I will learn not to go mental every weekend. It ruins my performance and half the time it’s just through boredom on a Saturday night. Not a celebration or with any real reason behind it. You might scream why are you so boring but I am not saying I’m giving up, just limiting my intake.

So I know these are only linked to fitness and my diet, but I’m sure I’ll post about other goals in my life at the end of this week, but I didn’t want to overload you all! Plus my fitness is quite important to me. I’m not necessarily looking to loose weight, just tone up!

In other news, I sold my old guitar and amp on eBay and also found out I was owed some money, so I have a bit of spare cash which I am going to put towards a GPS running watch (shock) and also maybe towards my bucket list…I will keep you informed with these plans once I’ve made them as I may have some exciting news in the pipeline! 🙂

If anyone has any other tips on diet and exercise (especially sorting my flabby abs out) – please let me know! I will occasionally update you on how I’m doing but not everyday, as I’m sure no-one wants to read about my weird eating habits and my crap PB’s for my sprinting!