My Crazy January

Spoiler alert: it hasn’t been that crazy but you wouldn’t actually read on if I’d have said my mental break down month right?

So I’ve had a strange January if anything, it’s been full of spunking money on things that I definitely don’t need, deferring my French uni module and getting back into running. Most of my friends knew that towards the end of last year I was running on overdrive, I had no time for anything, my hours were all planned from 6am- 10pm and I plain wasn’t enjoying life. Whenever I would drink I would get so drunk and either cry or to the point where I wouldn’t remember what had happened during the night – yeh, not so cool.

The reason for this was I had taken too much on; two uni modules, a now 3 hour commute to and from work everyday, 9 hours at work, the stress of wedding and hen do planning, getting back into running/trying to get in shape and all while still trying to have a social life. It just didn’t give me any free time to a) myself and b) with Ben. I think the saying is burning the candle at both ends? But I’m notorious for getting these sayings wrong!

So I decided I couldn’t do and have everything and something would have to give. After a chat down the pub when Ben’s rents came down to see us, I was basically told that I would never get anywhere near professional levels in my running career (which I knew anyway!) and therefore it should be uni I should focus on. After growing up with parents who were so chilled with what we did after we had done our qualifications, funnily enough I didn’t like being told that. So I followed my heart and chose to stick at running, my favourite outlet for stress, a sport in which, no I won’t excel at starting at the age of 21, but I love! On the rare occasion I did open my French books, I was always grumpy, stressed because my ‘tutor’ was the least helpful one I’d had so far and we got off on the wrong foot straight away and upset that I wasn’t excelling as fast as I have with German. So I deferred the year.

Many people would see that as admitting defeat but I’m someone who will often not see things through and it won’t bother me at all. I can return to it, of course, but for the time being there is no point attempting to put half of my heart into something when I could give it my all when I am at a better place in life. Over Christmas I decided to get a lot of wedding planning done so I’m no longer stressed about that and I’m actively making sure I go to as many social events as I can make so not to become a boring loner who lives in the countryside and see’s no-one but her fiancé!

So my weeks are now organised by long runs, my track training (I have finely returned to athletics), gym sessions, nights out and lots of stretching and healthy eating. My mind finely feels good again. I’ve had time to start reading again, in German of course 🙂 and even had time to slip in some bakes. Two of my closest friends are going through individual crises at the moment and I need to be there for them, especially as I experienced something similar in both of their situations.

In other, less morbid news….

– I could be crossing one of my Bucket List items off on the 8th June 😉 very exciting.

– I have entered the ballot for the New York Marathon – what I was thinking when I did this I don’t know, I wasn’t even pissed!

– I have signed up to the actual Will of Iron…which I did do whilst pissed and have just this second remembered – I think I need to quit wine.

– I think I have finally found my bridesmaid dresses!

– I may be booking another tattoo (my in-laws will love that – tehehe).

– I’ve got a skiing holiday on 7th Feb to get real excited about.

– I invested in some new running shoes……..2 pairs, oppsie. I will add photos of all of my new purchases in my next post as I want to do a haul/fitness update.

– I’m back to running 9-10 miles, adding on a mile each week.

– I’ve worked out that my new SITC box set I got for Christmas can be listened to in German! I have been glued to the telly today (I was off work due to some weird illness I have).

And finally, so this isn’t all just boring words, here are some of my photos of what I’ve been up to lately.

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Firstly, I have been loving the sunsets from our bedroom window recently, especially as they’re becoming later and later.

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Yeeees, we have dodgy windows!

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To help me relieve my stress, I’ve been having loads of long baths and getting stuck into this. It’s definitely a young adults book but that’s good for my German.

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Hahaha, had to add this, this is what I just realised I signed up to last night – why oh why do I drink!

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Loving this present I got for Christmas, it really motivates me to get out as you can see your splits, how you’re improving over time and of course, it’s green!

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I’ve been having trouble with my eating at the moment due to my stress, more so with just my body confidence so I found this picture of me when I was at my skinniest and using it as my ‘thinspiration’. I know how wrong this is but there is noway I would go back to my old ways, this is just to prove to myself that I can get to a size I’d like to be when I put my mind to it.

I’ve got a couple of post ideas lined up – now that I actually have time to myself my content will hopefully get a little more interesting. As I’ve said before, I don’t really have a direction with this blog but I lot of the time it will be my rants, thoughts, my fitness and my adventures 🙂 So I hope you keep enjoying a nose into my life and thoughts.

Hope you are all well and 2015 is being kind to you. Much love XX

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Bucket List Update – 2014

I’ve got a few ‘end of year / new start’ themed posts lined up to write, which is unusual for me to be thinking about as I am such a NYE Grinch. I think there’s so much pressure for you to go to an awesome party, be around all of your friends AND family and try to live up to the saying, ‘how you spend NYE is how you’ll spend the next year’. Well to be quite frank I’d rather sit in drinking a bottle of wine and eating cheese and if that means I’ll be doing that for 2015, I will not be moaning!

But alas I’m being dragged out to a party where none of my friends will be seen as they’re all in different places this year so it makes sense to see all of Ben’s friends! So I’m putting my foot down and hosting a New Years party next year. My friends and I haven’t spent a NY’s together in…ever? We couldn’t do it this year as we’re having works done the house and the ground floor is so cold you pretty much have to wear a coat and slippers as soon as you walk down the stairs – not cool.

Rather than talking about my resolutions in this post, I will save that for maybe tomorrow or a week from now as my post timings have become really irregular due to the fact I have been crazy busy over the ‘relaxing’ Christmas period. Instead, I’m going to look back at the whole reason I made this blog – My Bucket List.

I started this blog last year with the intention to get 5-8 things ticked off of my bucket list each year…let’s see how I did…

22) Rent a cute cottage in Ireland with a log fire

So this one involved Ben’s proposal, a holiday and discovering S.West Ireland – which by the way is incredibly beautiful and some bike rides to remember. We went away on June 26th and he proposed on the 27th! A date to remember 🙂

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BIKE FRIEEEEEEENDS

36) Go to the Ice Bar

I completed this one with the help of two of my best friends to celebrate my birthday. Unfortunately I was horrendously hungover from my birthday bbq at our old house, so getting the motivation to get up and get a train was proving to be somewhat of a mission. I think that morning has got the be the most hungover I’ve been in 2014. I’ll take my bow 🙂

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40) Run a Half Marathon

In March of this year I completed the Silverstone Half Marathon, my first half marathon of hopefully quite a few, if my body decides that it will allow me to push myself this much! I really loved this day, I can’t lie it was harsh conditions with a lot of wind and considering I was injured the week before, I didn’t fancy my chances. I completed this in 1hr 59, which I was happy with as my goal was sub 2hrs! Woohoo! We celebrated with wine and steak that night at one of my favourite restaurants. Check out this tired, sweaty mess !

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49) Go to a PROPER Christmas market (none of these British City wannabes)

As featured in one of my recent blog posts we visited Cologne, Germany just before Christmas which was incredible. As this is still pretty fresh for the blog, go check out the page as I won’t bore you with the details I’ve written in the past fortnight.

53) Have a pint of Guinness in Ireland

Again, this one I completed on our holiday where Ben proposed in Ireland. I had tried Guiness before this point but really hated the stuff. But I felt it had to be done – when in Rome and all that!

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61) Drink Champagne in a Hot Tub

This one was a bit of a cheat because my friends and I actually had Prosecco. But if I’m honest I actually prefer the stuff, it’s so much easier to drink – dangerous. The hot tub was rented out for my bestie’s little sister’s birthday as a surprise, so once she’d got over the novelty of the hot tub, we took our chance and had a night in there! It was pretty sweet actually, I felt like a rich and famous person. I know hot tub’s aren’t too expensive but I don’t think I’d ever want to invest in one, especially now we’ve moved to Suffolk!

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SIX! I managed to complete 6, which is pretty much the goal I wanted last year – I’m happy with that one. One of my resolutions is to get through a few more of these next year, I have a few in mind, can you guess which ones?

If you’re struggling for a New Year’s Resolution, I suggest making a Bucket List and trying to get through 5-10 each year, it’s such a fun way to make sure you’re not wasting your life. I am constantly adding to mine throughout the year when I remember something I am desperate to do!

Did you guys tick anything off of your Bucket List this year?

Happy New Year!! (It’s taken a lot for me to say this so be nice) 🙂