I’ve had a really nice chilled day today, I don’t work Monday’s at the moment as I made some dealio with my Pappa that I can have Monday’s off to get my uni work done and for now it’s been allowed (shout out to my Daddy for making my life a little less stressful – woo).

So instead of me giving you a run down of my day, I thought I’d capture my day in ten photos. Here goes!





















I do my Sunday’s on a Monday.


Holidays are comin’

Now I can certainly say writing a blog post this evening hadn’t even crossed my mind, in fact it hasn’t for the last few months. Not until my friend Char, a fellow ‘blogger’, sent me a little reminder that she’s going to be writing every day in November which of course got me excited and made me wonder, can I do it this year? Writing for me lately has consisted of copious amounts of shopping and to-do lists and a scramble of French passages trying to pass as assignments, I feel I haven’t had the time for any personal writing.

The other problem is that the last couple of months have been a very big mental struggle for me. Positive thinking and myself were no longer pals and I had Dominos on my speed dial; the manager has even started to recognise me there, awks! I’ve had no real want to share with the internet as my mental health hasn’t been at all great, I’ve lost motivation for everything in life and my physical health has been a bit of a sham too. These stages come and go in life frequently, I can vouch for that, but this one has been pretty difficult for me. I’ve gained so much weight, lost some special friends and opened a few too many wounds from the past just to top it off.

I guess this is me trying to push through it, share with my internet chums the struggles I mentally go through in life, when I eventually want to open up about them. Christmas (for me this is the whole of November and December) is a time where everything should sparkle, you make more memories with your family and there seems to be a spark in the air. I cannot carry on feeling so sorry for myself in this period or the months will fly by, February will be here and I’d have wasted Winter.

So, will I be blogging for the entire month of November? Maybe not, I don’t take to pressure very well. But I feel this could be one of the many ways to help me. I feel the need to get back on track, so yesterday I took a trip into my local town of Woodbridge and instead of my normal route of shopping where I create a list of shops I want to go in, speedily carry out my shopping duties and hurry home in the fear of getting a parking ticket, I took the time to really browse the shops in my town. It was beautiful, look at the Christmas decoration I stumbled upon – how very Tay and Ben!


I was really dreading yesterday, my mum was coming up to visit for the day and evening – now I don’t think I’ve ever touched on my relationship with her, but it has been very, let’s say, volatile ever since I can remember. I can’t fault her in many ways of how she raised four children, bloody hell I couldn’t manage four brats, three of which were active little boys followed by a Tom Boy, but her parenting in many aspects was very questionable. Granted it’s nowhere near as hideous as some very unfortunate children in this world, but certain events, words and actions leave scars and unfortunately I don’t think I can ever forgive some things. When I moved out, she tried to make a real effort to repair our relationship, it’s taken time and we do get along so much better now but there is some bitterness always lingering, she can’t notice it because she’s often so wrapped up in her own life to take notice, but I feel it all the time.

So I caved when she kept asking for a date to come and visit which was booked for a while for this weekend; we had a glass of Prosecco, a quick lunch and browsed the shops. To be honest it was actually a great day, it took my mind off of many things, I got to really see what Woodbridge has to offer and more importantly it got me in the Christmas mood. After her leaving this morning, a yoga/stretching/meditation session, I’ve realised if I don’t try and think positively, nothing is going to change. I’m going to keep putting on some timber, feeling miserable and pushing my husband further away.

So here goes, dare I say it, roll on Christmas and bring old Tay back!

Köln – Part I

First up, to avoid any confusion, Köln is the German word for Cologne but I always feel it is appropriate to use the actual name of the place rather than the English translation – it’s almost bordering on ignorant. Alas, Ben and I went to Köln on Saturday for a cheeky four day trip to discover the city, get me speaking a bit of German, enjoy their amazing food and of course visit their many’a Christmas market – which might I add, did not disappoint.

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So that I can split this into two blogs (so you’re not completely bored by our photos) I have tried to opt for ‘architectural/historical’ photos in this blog which may be pretty boring to those of you who have already been to the city. Just so you know, I can’t really take credit for these photos, Ben took most of the ‘arty’ one’s, I don’t really have an eye for capturing a good pic. Most of my photos consisted of booze and food – nommy. Don’t worry, it’s what you’ve got to come.

Cologne is a beautiful city, although four days to roam around is plenty. For some reason I thought it’d be a little bigger but you could easily walk around it in 2-3 days – on our final day we spent 2 hours twiddling our thumbs before dinner! This isn’t a bad point by the way, I just don’t suggest you spend longer than 4-5 days there especially if you’re doing a tour of Europe or Germany.

Going to Cologne only enhanced my love for the country; their food, drink, language, friendliness and ways of life are just a touch above anywhere else I have ever visited. Their transport system for example is miles ahead of the UK’s. 3 hour delays in rush hour are just unheard of. Litter on the streets is rare and rude locals are non-existent. Another awesome city that Germany has to offer, it is definitely in my top 5!


A Christmas ‘Would You Rather’

Oh hey again all, you must be getting sick of me! I’ve decided to stick to the theme of my weekend and answer a festive would you rather which I got from an awesome blog I follow – you guys should go check it out! Ben and I are currently watching Frozen like children with the Christmas decorations all illuminated and a Christmas candle burning while drinking a caramelized apple green tea – mm mmmm 🙂 Happy Tay

Have to loudly sing the chorus of Jingle Bells every time you walk into a room for a week or have to wear a Santa suit to school every day for a week.
Definitely wear a santa suit, I cannot sing for shit and wouldn’t want to cause anyone pain around the festive season.

Not celebrate Christmas this year or not celebrate your birthday this year
110% not celebrate my birthday, I’m totally over my birthdays now I’m 23…urgh, I think I was a little sick in my mouth even saying it.

Have Frosty the Snowman for a friend or Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer for a friend
Frosty, he’d be fun as hell. Rudolf would just wanna fly everywhere and I’m not cool with that!

Have mistletoe hanging in your bedroom doorway or have a large decorated Christmas tree in your bedroom doorway
Mistletoe, I’d get loads of kisses! 🙂

Write a five paragraph essay about the meaning of Christmas or solve a page of Christmas-themed math problems
Christmas themed Maths questions, I used to be pretty good at Maths so I fancy my chances – plus I’m awful at English and essay writing.

Have a job wrapping presents at the mall or have a job taking pictures of children sitting on Santa’s lap at the mall
I think wrapping presents so I may have a chance of actual getting better at it. Mine look like a 7 year old has had a bash at wrapping.

See the Nut Cracker or dance in the Nut Cracker
I’ve not seen the Nut Cracker so I can’t really answer this one…

Be given $100 for Christmas to buy things for yourself or be given $1000 before Christmas to use to buy gifts for other people
These days you can’t really get much for £100 – i’m gonna use my own currency here – but imagine what awesome presents you could buy for £1,000 and I’d rather make others happy than be greedy with my £100 gifts.

Have a nose that glows red like Rudolf’s or have pointy ears like an elf
I’d opt for the nose cause it could be pretty cute and I hate my ears as they are, let alone if they were pointy as well!

Totally forgot that we’re actually going to Cologne on Saturday, suddenly so excited. I’ll be able to tick another item off of my bucket list – woop. Hope you’re all having similar lazy Sundays or out getting some crisp fresh air and exercise unlike us slobs 🙂

Blogmas Fail – Our Christmas Day Day

I want to apologise for my lack of 5th and 6th blogmas posts, but the 5th I’d written a piece during work hours and forgot to send it to myself to edit after work but alas, I didn’t and got completely wrecked at my first Christmas Party so couldn’t even write a text to my mum let alone write a coherent blog post. Yesterday was just pure laziness/business.

So to make up for it, i’ll be writing two posts today and two tomorrow! Lucky you 😉

Every year Ben and I elect a Saturday to have a Christmasey day. It consists of hunting for the perfect tree, some more decorations to our small collection, going for lunch somewhere new and coming home for decorating, prosecco and all the bad snacks we can eat! So yesterday was our Christmas Day day…..

Mine started off with a rank hangover, I was supposed to get up at 8 and help my brother move from his flat on the first floor to the ground floor, after leaving the house at 10 and my van not starting, I eventually only got there at 11. Luckily my fiancé had gone over at 8 and had been a trooper with him! So we stayed and helped until about 12:30 then made our way to Perrywoods, which is like a small grotto/garden centre. We picked our tree and some new decs then made our way to the new restaurant which Ben had picked out – The Maybush in Walderingfield. To say the food was ‘good’ would be a understatement. FYI – I had a bacon and brie sandwich and shared some cheesy chips mmm.

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These were the pictures that we took after lunch outside the back of the pub – definitely going to be a beautiful place to eat and drink in the summer I feel.

We came back and started the carnage of decorating…..


This was mid decorating, ignore the dead flowers, they look pretty morbid.


This is our final finished product – if I’m honest we should’ve spent longer being more picky about the tree, it is a good size but has a lot of gaps!


This is my favourite part of the lounge, my mum made us that garland (I think that’s the word) and I feel the whole scene is very Christmasey.


Here is the advent calendar my mum made us last year, this year I’ve filled it with clues, almost like a treasure hunt, for Ben to use his noggin’ to go find!DSC01429 DSC01430

I didn’t even pick this wreath, Ben did before I’d met him and I think it’s gorgeous. I love the mints in it!

So after we’d finished putting these all up and got the hoovering done, we sat down with some onion rings crisps, prosecco and followed it up with cheese and wine.

Perfect 🙂

P.s, who else loves the tacky penguin my Dad bought me!?!

Feeling Festive

So in the spirit of the 1st December, which begun very cold for me and full of Christmas tunes from different radio stations, which admittedly I was skipping to try and find said songs to get me in the mood, I am going to do a festive post. I may have had both of my chocolate advent calender chocs before I left the house this morning…..I leave at 6:25….not greedy at all.

I have decided to attempt blogmas, however I am awful at committing to things so if I manage this challenge/vow to my blog, I have decided I will treat myself to something like a Yankee candle for the house, or maybe some nice wedding shoes 😉 I think it’ll be a great way with me to bond with my blog again and hopefully learn to love writing again.

In the last few days some Christmas items have made it into the house. We haven’t actually done our ‘decorations weekend’ which consists of going to Perrywoods, the most Christmasey shop in Essex, going out for lunch, picking our tree then coming home for an evening of prosecco, pj’s, steak and chips, festive music and decorating, with maybe a smidge of Elf involved.

So these are the first items of Christmas to grace our new home.


So I came home the other day, after breaking down in my new company van (yeeeeh, I was mega happy about that one) and this is what I was greeted with! Penguins, if you hadn’t guessed by now, are my favourite animal so Ben decided to jazz up our new home with this seasonal door mat. I cannot explain how much I love this!



This is an advent calendar my in-laws made for us, cleverly making sure each day had the same chocolates together (or I would’ve stolen the best one). FYI, Cadbury’s Caramel – bellissimo!

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Meet Oscar! He made an appearance on our anniversary! We said we weren’t doing presents as it’s silly now we’re due to get married but as I get excited for Christmas in early October, he was exactly what I needed! Lets see if anyone can pick up why I called him Oscar…..

DSC01374It’s a sin to put Christmas DVD’s away with your decorations just incase you have a random festive day during the year and you need your fix! So these are in our big DVD/book storage units and I have to say Elf came out over 6 weeks ago and has been sitting beside the TV…where Peter Pan is now actually haha….for a long time! I really want to say this is my favourite Christmas film but I think it’s level pegging with The Grinch!


These were just a few extra snaps I thought I’d add in for good measure so you can all be nosy 🙂

Is anyone else already as excited for Christmas as I am? Our decoration day is Saturday, which after my first Christmas work party on the Friday, could not come any sooner.

I hope no-one reading this is a festive Grinch! Unsubscribe now if you are as there will be many more posts like this to follow!