My Crazy January

Spoiler alert: it hasn’t been that crazy but you wouldn’t actually read on if I’d have said my mental break down month right?

So I’ve had a strange January if anything, it’s been full of spunking money on things that I definitely don’t need, deferring my French uni module and getting back into running. Most of my friends knew that towards the end of last year I was running on overdrive, I had no time for anything, my hours were all planned from 6am- 10pm and I plain wasn’t enjoying life. Whenever I would drink I would get so drunk and either cry or to the point where I wouldn’t remember what had happened during the night – yeh, not so cool.

The reason for this was I had taken too much on; two uni modules, a now 3 hour commute to and from work everyday, 9 hours at work, the stress of wedding and hen do planning, getting back into running/trying to get in shape and all while still trying to have a social life. It just didn’t give me any free time to a) myself and b) with Ben. I think the saying is burning the candle at both ends? But I’m notorious for getting these sayings wrong!

So I decided I couldn’t do and have everything and something would have to give. After a chat down the pub when Ben’s rents came down to see us, I was basically told that I would never get anywhere near professional levels in my running career (which I knew anyway!) and therefore it should be uni I should focus on. After growing up with parents who were so chilled with what we did after we had done our qualifications, funnily enough I didn’t like being told that. So I followed my heart and chose to stick at running, my favourite outlet for stress, a sport in which, no I won’t excel at starting at the age of 21, but I love! On the rare occasion I did open my French books, I was always grumpy, stressed because my ‘tutor’ was the least helpful one I’d had so far and we got off on the wrong foot straight away and upset that I wasn’t excelling as fast as I have with German. So I deferred the year.

Many people would see that as admitting defeat but I’m someone who will often not see things through and it won’t bother me at all. I can return to it, of course, but for the time being there is no point attempting to put half of my heart into something when I could give it my all when I am at a better place in life. Over Christmas I decided to get a lot of wedding planning done so I’m no longer stressed about that and I’m actively making sure I go to as many social events as I can make so not to become a boring loner who lives in the countryside and see’s no-one but her fiancé!

So my weeks are now organised by long runs, my track training (I have finely returned to athletics), gym sessions, nights out and lots of stretching and healthy eating. My mind finely feels good again. I’ve had time to start reading again, in German of course 🙂 and even had time to slip in some bakes. Two of my closest friends are going through individual crises at the moment and I need to be there for them, especially as I experienced something similar in both of their situations.

In other, less morbid news….

– I could be crossing one of my Bucket List items off on the 8th June 😉 very exciting.

– I have entered the ballot for the New York Marathon – what I was thinking when I did this I don’t know, I wasn’t even pissed!

– I have signed up to the actual Will of Iron…which I did do whilst pissed and have just this second remembered – I think I need to quit wine.

– I think I have finally found my bridesmaid dresses!

– I may be booking another tattoo (my in-laws will love that – tehehe).

– I’ve got a skiing holiday on 7th Feb to get real excited about.

– I invested in some new running shoes……..2 pairs, oppsie. I will add photos of all of my new purchases in my next post as I want to do a haul/fitness update.

– I’m back to running 9-10 miles, adding on a mile each week.

– I’ve worked out that my new SITC box set I got for Christmas can be listened to in German! I have been glued to the telly today (I was off work due to some weird illness I have).

And finally, so this isn’t all just boring words, here are some of my photos of what I’ve been up to lately.

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Firstly, I have been loving the sunsets from our bedroom window recently, especially as they’re becoming later and later.

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Yeeees, we have dodgy windows!

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To help me relieve my stress, I’ve been having loads of long baths and getting stuck into this. It’s definitely a young adults book but that’s good for my German.

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Hahaha, had to add this, this is what I just realised I signed up to last night – why oh why do I drink!

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Loving this present I got for Christmas, it really motivates me to get out as you can see your splits, how you’re improving over time and of course, it’s green!

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I’ve been having trouble with my eating at the moment due to my stress, more so with just my body confidence so I found this picture of me when I was at my skinniest and using it as my ‘thinspiration’. I know how wrong this is but there is noway I would go back to my old ways, this is just to prove to myself that I can get to a size I’d like to be when I put my mind to it.

I’ve got a couple of post ideas lined up – now that I actually have time to myself my content will hopefully get a little more interesting. As I’ve said before, I don’t really have a direction with this blog but I lot of the time it will be my rants, thoughts, my fitness and my adventures 🙂 So I hope you keep enjoying a nose into my life and thoughts.

Hope you are all well and 2015 is being kind to you. Much love XX

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My Most Re-Read Books

I’ve seen similar posts around to the one I’m about to write and also ‘2014 Book Favourites’ etc but if I’m honest, I’ve not had much time to get through many books this year as I’m studying; German and French books have to take priority. But even then I don’t often read novels in each of the languages because of my work load *sigh*.

So instead of having a top reads from this year, I’ve decided to show you guys my most re-read books. Of course there are hundreds others as I used to re-read my Jacqueline Wilson books several times when I was younger and the ‘Sleepover Club’ series I’d take out of the library on a weekly basis – does anyone remember these?

Anyho, I don’t often re-read books because my book shelves look like this:

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I’m one of those people who has a problem with buying books. I buy more than I have the time to read; I reckon there’s about 50 books in there that are on my To Read list. Although, having said that, once I really get into a series like I did in 2013 with The Hunger Games and Divergent series, I won’t stop reading them regardless of any other work/study commitments I have, so a book has gotta go a long way to capture my attention.

My first and probably most re-read book is the following:

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I’ve battered this book! There’s pages fallen out, so many pages turned over – I love it. I can actually remember buying it, I was 16 and in town with one of my old school pals Danny and we sat in Waterstones for hours trying to pick me a star sign book and I came away with this. I am in love with it. Everything in this book about my own star sign I believe is incredibly accurate and many others too. I tend to only read the star signs of those around me, like my best friends and brothers etc. I would really recommend this book to anyone who has an interest in Astrology.

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Now a massive movie phenomenon, The Hobbit was a classic book to read and I personally am really mad that they’ve made this into so many movies considering how short this book actually is. This was an accidental re-read for me, it was one of those books that I kept reading 2/3’s of and never finishing and forgetting the story. When the first film came out I told myself I’d read the whole thing and I eventually did. I do love the story of The Hobbit but I do think the films have ruined the image I had painted in my head of how the characters looked etc. A common negative to watching films after the books.

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I want to first start off with saying what incredible authors Nicci French are, they’re actually two people I believe, I found out once when googling the author. My mum used to read Nicci French books all the time when I was around 14-15 years old and so naturally being a book worm I asked if I could borrow one. She said of course but be warned they are a little scary. At the age of 15 you think you’re brave as fuck so I went for it. My god, some of their books have had me in tears before with fright. This is my favourite one of them all I think, I must’ve read it at least 3 times (a lot for someone who doesn’t like to read an old story). They’re crime/psychological thrillers so if you’re into that genre, I would seriously recommend any of Nicci French’s books.

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Oh hey booties! This book is actually a German book so I’m not too sure why I’ve added it in, but I was given this by one of my German exchange partners when she came back over to England. It’s quite an easy read for the average German teenage girl but when I first read this it really did challenge my language skills which is such a good way to learn. I love the story of this and each time I read a foreign language book I feel my mind is getting more of a work out than me being lazy and reading an English book. One of my favourite kind of books are ‘chic lits’ and in general they’re easier reads so when I do choose to ready trashy novels, I’ll try and find their German or French equivalent so I don’t feel quite as guilty.

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I had to throw in a chic lit! Especially a Christmasey one! I love to re-read my Christmas chic-lits, their endings are always happy and that’s what I wanna be reading in the run up to crimbo. This particular book I actually bought in the summer months as I remember first reading it on a boiling hot train into work – bleurgh. But I have re-read this a few times since, along with other Christmas romance books. They’re just the best. They’re always set in small remote villages with some poor single girl who loves staying in on Saturday nights drinking wine – remind you of anyone? Hahah.

One of my New Year’s goals is to get through the ton of unread books I do have festering on our shelves, but I need more of a structure to be able to actually follow my resolutions, so I’ll be having a think about these and will reveal my list sometime around New Year’s Eve!

If anyone has any ‘intelligent’ books or classics you can recommend, I’d be so grateful. I’m trying to broaden my mind and read up on all subjects to try and be a little more well rounded. I also think it would be a good idea to challenge my English reading, as we all know my favourites are pretty easy reads!

3 DAYS! XX