So guys, I think it’s finally time I got round to doing this post, a post that it’s really what my blog is all about – ticking off things from my Bucket List.
On reflection of 2015, on New Year’s Eve infact, someone said to me, ‘surely you had a great year, you got married!?’ I’m sorry pal but just because I got married doesn’t mean it’s been the greatest year of all, what about the year I got engaged or the year I met Ben? In general I don’t really like New Year’s so I was a bit grumpy and replied with, ‘it wasn’t the greatest’, but when I actually looked back at my memories (by that I mean my Facebook and Instagram photos) I have actually had a pretty damn good year.
However, as I look over that list now, which I haven’t updated since maybe July, I haven’t ticked off one item (except number 79 which I’d totally forgotten – 79) Marry the love of my life – opps, sorry Ben!)
79) Marry the love of my life
Towards the end of the year, I was really down and I just couldn’t put my finger on it. Was it because of the family arguments erupting every 5 minutes? Maybe. Was it because my parents weren’t going to be around for Christmas? Maybe. Was it because I was trying to do 50 million things all at once to better myself, to prove to myself (and maybe others) I wasn’t just coasting through life? Yes. And I learnt the hard way.
Tay, you cannot burn the candle at both ends.
So it got me thinking about the things I’d like to achieve in 2016, goals which are both realistic and unrealistic and the latter of the two, how can I break these down? So I had a thought. Instead of setting myself big goals, I will give myself a goal a week to try and get myself in a place that I want to be by the end of 2016 without putting any pressure on myself.
Last year I was compiling lists of books I needed to read, lists of blog posts I needed to write but never actually getting the time to do either. I was stressing myself out at wanting to get things done then the pressure of all of this getting on top of me. I fell out with a friend and became bitter about sharing my friendship and love with others. This year, I want to break that mould. I will be leaving people who make little or no effort or bring bad negativity into my sensitive mind back in 2015!
I haven’t quite thought up my whole 52 weeks of what I want to change, I have a couple of course but again, I don’t want to commit to anything that will put pressure on me. Last year I realised I am not someone who copes well with pressure and having to tick boxes; sure, I love a to-do list but in reality my little Gemini mind likes to float and go with how I’m feeling in the moment. If I don’t want to sit and write for half an hour but instead go for a walk on my own, I’ll do it. If I don’t want to go to a see a half-hearted friend because they’re back and need to kill some time, I won’t. I want to make real effort with those who care and push away the people who cause me drama. I HATE DRAMA.
With that in mind, Week 1 of 2016 – drink at least 2 litres of water a day and try to increase this after exercising. A little goal for me as I look at my reflection in the mirror day after day and I’m not so sure what my skin needs; after hours of wasting my life googling it, water seems to be the first step! It will improve my concentration, my mood and hopefully my energy levels! I downloaded an app called My Water to help me do this which I’ve been using over Christmas and shock horror have been failing miserably to meet my 2L target. This week is about actively hydrating myself to see if I notice any difference with the physical and mental state of my body.
Being someone who is also into sport and unfortunately suffers from body dysmorphia, I of course have set myself some other physical challenges. Instead of ‘oh I want to loose X amount of weight’, I’ve signed up to The London Duathlon, 2 half marathons, the London Tri and……a Half Ironman! I know, what am I playing at? My thought process was that not only would I love to achieve completing many of these ‘races’ but on the way I will be losing belly fat, discipling myself with alcohol and food and also enjoying the sports that really give me a buzz. If I have a goal, I can’t deter as I will need to keep training. So, watch this space 😉
What are your New Year’s goals/ resolutions / plans?
Tell me about them below 🙂